The Death Experience of Bhagawan Ramana Maharshi
Can you describe your death experience?
"It was a sudden fear of death. The actual enquiry and ascertainment or discovery of 'Who am I'
was over on that very day. Instinctively I held my breath and began to think or dive inward with
my inquiry into my own nature. 'This body is going to die', I said to myself, referring to the gross
physical body. I came to the conclusion that when it was dead and rigid (then it seemed to me that
my body had actually become rigid as I stretched myself like a corpse with rigor mortis, thinking
this out), I was not dead. I was, on the other hand, conscious of being alive, in existence. So, the
question arose in me 'What is this l? Is it this body who calls himself the 'I'? ' so I held my mouth
shut, determined not to allow it to pronounce 'I' or any other syllable. Still I felt within myself the 'I'
was there the sound was there and the object calling or feeling itself 'I'was there. What was that?
I felt that it was a force or current, a centre of energy playing on the body, working on despite the
rigidity or activity of the body, though existing in connection with it. It was that current, force, or
centre that constituted my personality, that kept me acting, moving, etc., as I came to know then
and only then. I had no idea whatever of my self before that. Once I reached that conclusion, the
fear of death dropped off. It had no place in my thoughts. 'I' being a subtle current had no death
to fear. So, further development or activity was issuing from the new life and not from any fear.
I had at that time no idea of the identity of that current, or about its relationship to Personal God,
or 'Iswara' as I used to term Him.. Later, when I was in the Arunachala temple, I learnt of the
identity of my personality with Brahman, and later with Absolute Brahman, which I had heard of
in 'Ribhu Gita' as underlying all. I was only feeling that everything was being done by the current
and not by me. Since I wrote the parting chit, I had ceased to regard the current as my narrow 'I'.
That current or 'Avesam' was now felt as myself not a superimposition.The awakening gave me
a continuous idea or feeling of my personality being a current, force, or Avesam, on which I was
perpetually absorbed whatever I did, read, or when I walked, spoke or rested.."
Bhagavan Ramana Maharshi
Ref: BOOK : A.R.Natarajan,A practical guide to Know Yourself, P 17.